- - You know, it's gruelling.  People think that it's very glamourous and for the most part it is.  Yes, I get to travel, and be in front of the camera and to have this sort of interaction with people all the time.  But it's also ...physically and mentally gruelling because you have to be “ON” all the time and that's hard to do to stay in that spot you know?  It's also a very judgemental industry, very judgemental and every girl whether they admit it or not, is self conscious and to get into this industry is really hard on your self esteem and you just have to ride out the bumps and know that it's not like a personal attack.  Which is really hard to do sometimes, and then the acting..... I go and choose the hardest profession IN THE WORLD. I mean there is more rejection there than you could imagine.  But I dunno, maybe I like a challenge, maybe I like doing this to myself because it shows that I can come above it.  So, I would say yes and no... there is more to it than I expected there to be, or most people think there is, but is it still awesome and fun and glamourous at times, of course.

- - Um.... it's hard, it's really hard, I'm not gonna lie because I like eating junk food and I eat late at night. I have the worst eating habits IN THE WORLD. I don't do breakfast, I don't get hungry during the day and at night I'm starting to, so I could eat anything and everything in my path. So it's really hard for me to do, so I put myself on a constant diet all the time and by diet I don't mean REALLY strict but I'm always having to watch what I eat.  Because I know if I allow myself to binge on whatever I want, then I'm gonna suffer for it, since that's just my body type and it shows on me very, very quickly. I'm not a size two ,so if I do have a big meal, I bloat up instantly and it shows.  So I've had to be really careful about that. I've had ,you know pizza, between photo shoots and it just kills my energy and I'm so lethargic and falling asleep. So, most people that shoot me know not to feed me in between shoots because it always happens.

Well for me anyway... some girls can just do it but for me it just goes sooo heavy on me right away so I can't, but as for working out, I like to do things like Yoga, and I'm gonna start to learn how to snowboard this winter, it's my new thing.

I think something like ,“Top Model” is good. It steers them. Of course, that's for high fashion models and they do get a big wake up call as to what it is, although what we see on tv again looks very luxurious.  They live in a beautiful mansion ,they wake up to a photo shoot, wake up to another photo shoot and well, you know.  But it's gruelling and I think it's good for them to know that it is hard to do and any sort of modelling whether it be fashion, glamour or anything like that, the girls who are getting in at such a young age, it's really hard. I feel bad because I see a lot of them are soo naive and they are more likely to get taken advantage of.  You know, you have some photographer that claims to shoot for Playboy, he gets them naked and who knows?  Everyone claims to shoot for Playboy at some time and there are thousands of photographers out there. For me ,I'm happy I started when I was 26 because I was prepared to take a step back and say, “Do I want this? Yes... No?” I've been very, very picky about what I've done, which I think is why I've done so well. I've done it so quickly because I pick and choose everything. I haven't done that much but I'm very selective about who I shoot with for that very reason.  In fact, I know girls who want to do this so badly but they have people around them that are just... well taking advantage of them, you know? And they don't know any better. They wanna be models and they wanna do this and do that. That's why I like the idea of when some girls come to me for advice and when they have questions, stuff like that,  and I'm always more than open to it. I encourage them to come to me and I have a lot of friends who are probably 22, 23 and I encourage them to come to me when there is someone who wants them to sign a contract. So I get them to bring it to me and you know ,I take the time to help and I feel sort of big sister-ish with a lot of them. Yeah. It's good.

Right, so when that comes out, that can ruin your career so definitely you said it perfectly, “ Take a step back, see if it's what you want to do and ask questions.” There are literally hundreds of thousands of models everywhere and everyone is usually open to answering those questions and so chances are somebody knows somebody who has had a photo shoot with that person.

Playmate.... Of course, it was a lifelong dream of mine to be in Playboy, so it really holds a special place in my heart. But of course Max Fit, 'cuz I mean who doesn't wanna be in Max Fit because it makes you sound all buff even when you're not. Kitten Of The Month was super fun too. I thought that was so cute and I got to do a sort of Boxing photo shoot.

Oh, no, no, no .. I work on it myself, Anissaholmes.com has been a work in progress for many years and it's gone through a lot of ups and downs, ups and downs and most recently I found a website and developer in the US who ended up doing my page for me and one of the conditions and the main reasons I went to him and paid extra was that I've always said and maintained, that I need full control of my site.  That means I do my own updates, my own pictures and I do everything to it, even take stuff down. I don't wanna be chasing someone down and saying, “Ok .. can you put this update up or can you add this journal,” or whatever.  I can't rely on somebody else to do what I need to get done when I need it to get done.  So it's my little office at home, it's my time for me and I give myself a couple of hours a day to go on there and do what I have to do. I think that it is hugely important to have total control over your career.

Hmmm... Well, to be honest, I haven't actually done one yet. I just set up the webcam now so I'm getting the whole thing in progress, and I'm drumming up some ideas and thinking about cute things like, Tuesday is “Cleaning Day,” let's say, and I do it in a really cute little outfit and  they can watch and interact at the same time.  I'm thinking of more interesting shows other than me just sitting there and being all, “Hello”... but that's what I'm thinking, so I'm coming up with a whole slew of ideas and then make them on a regular basis and people can come in and speak with me and know that I'm still just a regular person.

That's the biggest thing with a lot of these people. I get this, “Are you real?” I get that question all the time and I don't know what else I would be BUT real ... so.

Umm... I don't think so, I mean I'm very open to the adult industry and being involved in it but I don't have any interest in doing any kind of hard porn like stuff.  I guess people can look at “Forbidden Science” as like soft porn.  I think some people have viewed it that way, but I think that would be the extent of it.  But to me, that had a story, it was a series, it wasn't some 5.99 video in a bin. So those kind of things I'm okay with doing but to do an actual adult film has never been anything I've been intrigued enough to do but I love being a part of the adult entertainment world.  Right now for instance, I'm hosting a show called ,“Eros Tonight” where I'm a reporter and it's all adult stuff and we're right now doing a spin off of that show called, “Anissa's Dirty Little Secret” where I'm going to have my own show and we're gonna start shooting in the next couple of weeks.  That again is gonna be all adult stuff so it will be like, do you remember Elvira from back in the day?

No, no, no.  I asked them if I was supposed to be doing the whole witch thing as well but no, we're gonna keep it very soft and sensual and it's gonna be all lingerie. I think that is the general idea behind my wardrobe; being all lingerie.

Facebook!, Facebook!!, Facebook!!!. Okay, to sum it up ,I was kicked off Facebook for no good reason.

They are bastards! I'll tell that to everyone.  Naw, just kidding, but they're terrible because it's not consistent.  They don't have one set of rules for everyone, they sort of pick and choose their rules and I really think that it's a horrible way of doing it,  you know?  I know a lot of people in the entertainment industry and even club owners and that kind of thing happens to them all the time. Their ( Facebook) biggest thing was, “Nudity, nudity, nudity, you have it all over your site.”  I never did and I would be the first to say but I never did, and so I decided to take it to the media and I never in a million years thought that it would explode as big as it did.  I mean it happens to thousands of people but what set my story apart, whatever it was it worked and I hit them so hard with the media, so fast. I kept calling every radio station, and every newspaper and it just kind of exploded then. By the end of the week, I was on the CTV National News at 11 and then Global News at 6 and they reinstated my account.  Only to shut me down again two weeks later saying there was nudity again.

I know. I think they are bots, I think they are ALL bots. I don't think there is a live person.  I was trying to get in touch with a real person to say that, “You're telling me there are images here with nudity and they are bad and WHATEVER.” So tell me which ones they are because I don't know what you consider “bad” or “nudity” because whoever this person is ,it's up to them and their judgement what they think is too suggestive.  Cuz now, in their rules, they say it's too “sexually suggestive.”  Well of course my images are sexually suggestive. They are all glamour shots and anything, any kind of modelling, is sexually suggestive at the end of the day.  Even fashion stuff. So who defines what is too suggestive? Is it this person who scans through everything? Will it be that person ,you know what I mean?  So they shut me down the second time. I finally got in contact with the person that reinstated me again all by e-mail still and I said, “ I really can't believe that with everything we've been through that your gonna do this again.” Followed by, “Really, I hope that you leave me no choice but to take it all one step further.”  Not that I want to threaten them but at the same time it was the only way I could feel that I was getting any kind of response from them.

So then finally he wrote back and he gave me a whole, “This is your last time being reinstated.” And I was like, “Fine, tell me the images you guys don't like so this won't happen again because don't for a second think that I enjoy this little game with you.”

So right now everything is calm for the time being and I learned my lesson and I'm trying to back up all the contacts that I have there. I've created like a place to keep posting little things. Like I just created a  personal g-mail account where it said, “Anissa's Fanpage” or “Anissa Fanpage” or something like that where people can send me their info. So I sent a quick e-mail to everyone saying, “Send me an e-mail with all your stuff “ and that will be that because if I'm gonna say if and when it happens again, I'm on their hotlist. I know I'm blacklisted so they are watching me. I can't really upload anything.

Yeah, but with the way they are going, they might be, “ That hand might be doing something suggestive.”  So now, I am only uploading cell phone shots like those candid behind the scenes shots and stuff, and people are making cracks about it saying, “Careful Anissa, your gonna get kicked off for that one.” Because everyone knows how ridiculous it is and the reality is that I am being watched.  I don't want to lose all those pictures so the first thing I did was take down all my family pictures and I don't wanna have that many pictures on there because they ( Facebook ) kept using them, they kept me there they just disabled it. ( her access )  So if someone was to Google my name, Facebook would come up almost immediately and people would click on the Facebook and...

Exactly, that's the whole reason they don't delete the account because they're still generating traffic to it, and at the end of the day who knows what they are going to do with those images when they refuse to give them back.  There has gotta be some rules or something... a policy. I know there is a big privacy issue thing in Canada, so I filed a complaint, but I haven't heard anything about it since, but they said they will investigate it and get in contact with me. It's tough and it's scary because you're in a position where you want to use Facebook for promotional purposes which millions of people do and you know, you put so much time and effort into that particular site and all of a sudden it just up and goes. So now I'm trying to put them on a bunch of little sites like Toronto.me so I don't focus all my attention on the one.